if something is perfect.. shouldn't it stay that way?

sorry it's been so long. i've had a lot on my mind and when i went to new brunswick i couldn't post because my dad's computer is so slow! i also had a lot of stuff going on like i found out my friend died in october (i don't want condolence, it's just an explination) and just a lot of stuff.
so anyway, in new brunwick i stayed around the house a lot and read. i read kissing kate which is really good. and i finially read twilight. it only took three days :). i love that book! we also watched a bunch of movies. like at least one every night. i'm not sure if i can remember them all, but i'll try. batman begins, die hard, live free or die hard, national treasure, national treasure 2, shoot 'em up, over the hedge, dooms day (which i hated!!) and 21 (which i loved) so over all it was pretty fun. i even got along with my brothers. i only got mad once, when they were making fun of people who cut themselves, which you must know i feel strongly about.
so i got home on friday nigh/saturday morning. and i went to the fair saturday. i went with emily and her friend who i don't like! then i left them to hang out with steph. and we hung out with different people. it was really fun! it had a ride that was just a big loop that you go around and around and we went on it so many times! usually in the front :) they also had a haunted house. it was fun during the day, but at night there was this guy with a creepy mask and a chain saw and me and stephanie screamed soo much she lost her voice and i almost did. i slept over at her house and it was so fun! then i went home and things took a bad turn.
it started yesterday. as you know i have a boyfriend who i love.. but i stated to like someone else.. i know i'm such a whore, and i feel horrible!! i just don't know if i should tell david.. and if i do how. and well i have to.. but idk.. it's so hard! i have to talk to stephanie before i do anything, but i don't know her new number!! this is so hard!! what should i do? ahh, i need help :( all this stress is making me sick!
laura.x !