my heart is pretty fast pase, can you keep up?

err, even my dreams are reminisant of the past! it was weird, i don't really remember it, all i remember is that it was me and stephanie and some random guy, and we were in the parking lot of my new school, but our old teachers were there. it was weird. so last night i couldn't get to sleep, so i scavenged my medicine cabnett and ccan you believe we don't have any cough syrup (don't care how unhealithy that is) and i looked up sleeping techniques and one was counting backwards from 100, and that actually worked, but the weird thing was what i pictured. kay so when we were in girls inc, we did this thing where we would relax and picture ourselves in a place we feel safe. mine was a forest in plymouth, england i saw on tv once, i just added a swing. and when i was counting back i pictured myself there and it really worked. it was cool.

kay sorry but i'm going to be a total fag, but this has been bothering me for half an hour. i am a closet degrassi fan ahaha, so anyway i just saw a new episode and.. kay well i'll tell you what happened in the last episode if you don't watch, this girl emma is dating this really hot guy paul (who used to be really ugly but now he's like BAM hot) but she kind of had a thing for his best friend sean. so emma told paul about it, and he got really pissed (obviously). the next day the principal (aka paul's mom) got a tip that sean had pot in his locker. so she searched and it was there and sean got expelled even though he said it wasn't his (pfft, who would believe him) so then emma was talking to sean and he said he thought that paul did it, so after school paul went up to emma and appologized for freaking out, and she forgave him, and they started talking about sean and emma said that he thought paul did it, and paul said he didn't. so then it went to sean who was in a garage working on a csr with this other dude, and the other dude said he should race paul, so he did but when he hit the nos he lost control and hit someone. and sean went to jail cause he's 18, and paul got house arrest and comunity service cause he's 17 i think. so today i was watching, and paul found his keys that his mom hid, and he was going to drive emma home, but she got kind of mad so she left, but after she told him to go to the mascarade party. so he bought her this really cool mast and left it in her locker. so at the dance he had to dress as a gorilla. so she was talking to this girl and told her that paul bought her the mask and left it in her locker and the girl was like ' you told him your combination? ' and emma said ' no? ' then she took paul to her locker and took off his mask and told him to open her locker and he said he needed the combination and she said ' i thought you had it ' and he said he wrote it down and she was like ' from where? ' and he explained that his mom had them all in her office and he got it there. and she asked if he planted the pot in sean's locker and he said that what he did was to keep him together. and she left him?! like wtf?! sean is a loser anyway i hate him! and paul is sweet, and really hot! ugh, kay i know it's probably not that new. but still i just saw it.

kay so the tittle, it's pretty simple. i realized i loose intrest in guys pretty fast. so i guess that things have to be intresting for me to stay around ahaha. idk it's weird :P

kay well no songs, pictures, or quotes today, sorry.

laura.xx !