ahaha sorry.

this is kind of a rewrite of last night's blog. i was in a rush to go to bed. so i'll explain what happened and what i meant. so i'll just start over.

i kinda sorta wish i could hear your voice, i kinda sorta wish you didn't have to leave, i kinda sorta wish you didn't care i was so loud, i kinda sorta wish i gave you a hug before you left, i kinda sorta wish i saw you more often, i kinda sorta wish you were here beside me, because i kinda sorta have a thing for you...

so last night i was just in my mom's room watching tv, and stephanie and one of our other friends came to my door, and we went out. we went to this giant gazibo (sp?) near my house and some other people came later. it was weird how fast people came out of no where. haha so anyway, then he came and i didn't know at this point. i'm not entirely sure when i started to like him, but somewhere during the night, i wanted to get closer to him. so the gazibo is right beside this restrant/bar and we were LOUD and talking about sex and stuff and we were all laughing and stuff and i think that the people probably thought we were drunk/high cause people go there to get drunk and high, but we wern't. so he kept saying stuff like 'do you not notice the people over there.. staring?' haha but it was really funny. well he has to go and i was kinda dissapointed, but i still had fun.

i still don't know if he should know. i mean if he doesn't like me i don't want to mess up our friendship.. idk what to do :S HELP!

laura.xx !