come and take it boy, cause you know i won't just give it to you..

so we went to ottawa and it was really fun. there were some tears, lots of laughs, a couple bruised hearts, late night partys, late night phone calls, secrets, lies and a strip club ?
ok so a couple people cried, but i think only two people did, which is a good low number. the late night phone calls i think were only me though, because i called him both nights. it was really funny, but we never once talked about what we needed to talk about. but all in all ottawa was really fun. we even got along with arden! but that won't last. tomorrw when i go to school everything will be the samee.
so enough about ottawa, because something more important happened. when we got home i went to the soccer feilds to hang out with him, and some of my other friends, well he didn't even come, but cause he wasn't allowed. so wel called him and i talked to him almost the whole time. and this time we did end up talking about it. as it turned out, after stephanie told him that i like him, he started thinking about it, and he started liking me. i was so happy when he said that. he said the he could see it happening, then it did.
i guess that letting him find out wasn't a bad thing after all. i mean if i just kept it to myself, he would have never started liking me back. the only thing i have to wonder now is what next ? i mean i like him. he likes me. so shouldn't the next thing be to date ? but i know that i'm not goingt to ask him. i don't care if you think i should. i really don't. a lot of you are always saying, just ask him. it's not hard. well not for you maybe. but it's just not the person that i am. a have said it many times, but most of you don't seem to get it. it pisses me off so much. you may not realize it, and you may not understand, but it does.. more than anything. most things i don't get mad about, but that is one of the few things i really hate.
k well any way, i don't know what to do now. it's out in the open that we like eachother, so is anything going to happen with it ? like until next year it would probably be hard to see eachother.. well not really. but a bit, like more than if we lived in the same town. but it doesn't matter to me.. would it matter to him ?
-xo Laura♥