because i've missed you, ever since i had to turn around and say "good bye"

so on sunday i went to the mall with emily, david, and one of emily's friends. it was kind of awkward at first because, to be honnest, it was the first time that we have seen eachother since we started dating. it was a little frustrating because it took him an hour and a half for him to hold my hand. but once we did he did, it was as though it was magical. Even though it was just a simple gesture, it was still adorable how it happened.
we were sitting on this couch by toys r us. i had my left hand on my knee, and he had his right hand in the small space between our leggs. he reached his pinkey out to grab mine, we looked at eachother, then back to our hands, then back to eachother. we both knew we wanted it, so he grabbed my hand. i smiled, but i could feel myself blushing, i had to look away. when i could feel the redness in my cheeks going away, i looked back, only to see him gazing at me. i felt the blood imediatly rush back, but this time i didn't care. our eyes met and neither of us broke the stare until we had to.
it wasn't long before we were finially left alone. it was nice to get to be with just him. we looked deep into eachothers eyes, we slowly got closer and closer. our noses touched, and our cheeks brushed. he parted his lips, and i thought that he was going to kiss me. instead he gently blew on my lips. i didn't know what to do. i wanted to kiss him! i wanted him to kiss me. we moved closer yet, our lips almost met, until i heard her voice "laura! it's four, we have to go." i hate thoes words. we pulled away and looked at eachother, both knowing that we didn't want it to end. we stood and started walking down the hall hand in hand. he broke the silience when he quietly said in the sweetest tone "laura, you're amazing." i looked back up at him and sumply said "you're more amazing."
when we got outside we had caught up to the others, but we fell behind again. i went to give him a hug, when i pulled away i looked into his eyes, he leaned in closer, and i stood on my tippy toes.. *btw if you want to skip the 'messy' details, skip the rest of this paragraph* as my lips melted into his soft, full lips i felt on top of the world. it was the most amazing kiss i had ever had. he slightly parted his lips to let my bottom one slide in, and when we closed his mouth it was gently pushed back out. he did the same with my top lip, and i just melted in his arms. if he wasn't there supporting me, i would have fallen over. when we finished i didn't want to let go, but i knew that i had to. it was so hard to walk away, i thought i was going to cry. but i didn't.
yesterday me, steph, david and all of our friend went to the mall. just like last time, it took a long time for him to do anything other than staring at eachother. this time just about everything that we did was because of stephanie. we ran into a store and as we were looking at the clothes, i told her that i hoped that it wasn't like last time. i wanted to hold his hand, but we both knew that i wasn't going to make the fist move. she asked if she could make us, and i said i didn't care. so when we left the store, david and i were standing next to eachother, and she said "HOLD HANDS!" i just laughed, looked at him and he grabbed my hand. it was really sweet.
once our friend left, we were sitting on this bench and we were looking deeply into eachothers eyes, and we slowly got closer and closer but stephanie just ruined the moment by saying "if you're gonna kiss just do it!" i looked at her, then back at him and laughed. he just shrugged and leaned in closer to my lips. *once again, might want to skip* it started the same as last time, our lips gently touched, he 'sucked' (if you will) on my bottom lip, then the top, then he oppened his mouth, and i was afraid that he was going to try to make out with me. but he just kissed me again. this one lasted a lot longer.
unfortunately we really pissed stephanie off a few times. we went back to the couches where we almost had our first kiss, and we kissed again, a lot. and some little kids were staring at us the whole time. but we didn't care. it was special, nothing could have ruined it. we were supposed to leave at 8:20, but we 'missed the bus' and stayed until 10. but the mall closed at nine, so we hung out outside of the mall for an hour. it was so much fun. i just wish i didn't have to say good bye..
Laura.xx !
p.s. if you were wondering why i was afraid that he was going to try to make out with me, it's because i've never done it before. i mean he knows that, i just like him so much that i don't want fuck it up!
p.p.s. i know the way that i worded how he kissed me is weird, but i didn't know how else to describe it!! :P